A hot spot where a day of clearing houses wore your heel red
You bred the spirit of your way that day,
Defeating the surpassing heat to achieve an improbable goal,
And suppressing anger with your presence
A cold heart saw the duty of a tired soldier—I hope.
The desert dirt caked against the corner of your smile;
A crumble fell and you didn't bat a lash
My brother, I long for your laugh—for your humorous persona
I wanna be there with you Jimmy,
But I can't find the where or the why today
My mind plays on about Iraq and it lures me back to your memory
You maintained a weapon well in that blistering hell,
And I am honored to be your friend—your leader
There is just so much pain in the mind of man that's not equipped for it
Out of basic training, you were right there and willing;
A boy taken by the momentum of war
Taken by war
You came home, I thought you were fine and of sound mind.
I was there with you suffering and I couldn't see it.
You reached out to me, and at arms length states are just too far.
The war's whip lashes too many memories in infamy,
And we lost you,
But not your humor
You were the best soldier a sergeant could ever have.
After they are gone, we walk with the pain and the loss.
"At all cost we must live on."
All endurance has an end my friends and the pain hits home.
A man I can't stand to mention,
Because we stomped the ground of Oakdale together,
And it pains me to even think about our brother from another mother.
His humor and stylistic grace was a pleasure to embrace.
You made this rat race so easy!
You made me laugh until I was hacking and wheezy.
A phone text to my attention brought me back to five-tweasy again,
"Carlos is dead."
I said, "Santana?"
"Wilcox," the improper slouch flexed.
In a text you son of a bitch!
In a moment I was inched toward clarity.
There is a war going on!
People are dying and yet here I sit tending to my material shit!
Man I miss you guys.
I can't hide behind this guise of temper,
I love you bro
Love was your method back in the day,
And you would want me to remember that
I wish I could see your smiles again,
So I close my eyes
You were the best friend a man could ever have
For a while it was strange to be without
And your presence drought leaves no doubt,
You're both out of range,
Yet you'll walk miles through my memory
Copyright ©2013 Justin Daniel Tew
To Carlos and Jimmy,
You sure made a mark with the short time you had. Thank you.
If you have lost someone you love or that impacted you immensely, take a moment to reflect on what made them so special.